Life


4
Aug 10

Hardest on Ourselves

Campfire 2010I have just come back from a relaxing holiday filled with sleeping in, night time campfires and lots of laughter. As soon as I step back in the office I can feel the stress build up in my shoulders and hear my inner-self say, “Better get at it and get productive, cause you need to make up the time you were away.” Wait, who is that? How did they get in here? I mean, cut me some slack. Isn’t relaxation and vacation good fodder to a happy worker and workplace?

I know the person who is hardest on me is myself. I push myself, I keep myself going with the little nudges to do more, get more out of myself and all of that will mean a better bottom-line and return on my time investment. Hmmmm. I think I used to believe that. I am not sure I do anymore. I know that if I shut out distractions (phone, email, Twitter, Yammer, Facebook and the sudden urge for more coffee) I can be very productive. I know, I have proven that to myself. However, when I become my own drill sergeant and literally push myself from the inside out, demanding more, I actually become less productive. There is something inside that rebels against “drill sergeant me” and works less efficiently.

We need time to stretch, to take a break and get our brains clear. Working for hours without blinking or taking a break actually works against you. Be honest with yourself. If you are in the groove then work it but if you are producing nothing, then move on to something else. Don’t let this be an excuse to slack off or procrastinate — that doesn’t work well personally or for your business.

I want to bring that vacation attitude back into my office. Get done what needs to be done, but do not attempt to push myself over the edge by doing it. Make use of good productive time, but remember to laugh, relax, stretch and live life while doing it. Most importantly, to quit being the hardest person on myself.


8
May 10

What May Brings

“One problem with gazing too frequently into the past is that we may turn around to find the future has run out on us.”

Michael Cibenko

Barbara

One of the many aspects of my own personality is to look back and think. Not that thinking is bad in itself, but sometimes I ponder how certain paths might have been changed or how a certain decision altered what I presently see. Although it is good to have a past awareness, I have to watch myself and make sure that I am not putting too much focus on the past; living in the now and planning for the future is vital. Learning from the past, learning from past mistakes, having an awareness that the person you were is hopefully a much better version today — that makes sense. Measuring your growth as a person and all that you have experienced is good; focusing on the past and not moving forward is not good.

I am aware of my strengths and my weaknesses. There are many of each. There is also a great appreciation of what has been instilled into me by my mother. She has given me many gifts: the love of music, an deep appreciation for art and the people of many nations and cultures, and the ability to say “thank you” or “I am sorry” or “I forgive you”, when I really need to, even to myself.

On May 28th, 2010 it will be the 19th anniversary of her death. On May 20th, 2010 it will be the celebration of my birth. On May 21st it will be a day to remember when on May 21st, 1991, I celebrated my mom’s last birthday (her real birthday is June 2nd) not knowing she would die just 7 days later but feeling that we just should celebrate her.

I look back and I am very thankful. Full of longing, missing but so very thankful. I am looking forward to what life has in-store. This Sunday, Mother’s Day, I celebrate the gift of my mom in my life — it may have been a whole lot shorter time span that I wanted, but I cherish the memories, the laughter and all that she has left me with.

The picture of my mom, Barbara (holding me when I was a baby) has a wonderful caption. That was just like my mom. I have albums full of wonderfully hilarious captions. Amazing how the past can make you smile today isn’t it.

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3
May 10

My new photos by Dana Nosella

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22
Mar 10

Today is a day of options

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2
Mar 10

The Office

Notice handy cup of java
Clean for now
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